Where did you go?

Polaroid, acrylic, ink, 24 × 36 cm

In 2022, my daughter suffered a significant birth trauma that caused her to be born without blood in her body. Immediately taken to special care, I was not only unable to hold her after her birth but spent several hours alone in a hospital room, unsure whether she was even alive. Later we met through the walls of an incubator, where a stranger's blood was slowly pumped into her body and her brain was being constantly monitored for signs of life. It seemingly vanished and no concrete answer to what happened to her in the final hours of labour was ever found.

Using past and present photographic techniques, including polaroid, mixed media and digital editing, this image belongs to a larger body of work that explores the act of creating, destroying and reimagining images as a way to better process memories of lived experiences.